it lies in the beholder’s perspective: matter of perception

It’s amazing how at the beginning of the week, all we can think of is how on earth to make it end quickly, but somehow, friday always comes around, and then all of us will partay and be happy again. I just feel thankful that it’s friday. Remember i said i would update this blog about my e-v-e-r-y day life for one whole month. I just missed the whole chunk from Monday till today.

Shall try to commit to memory, the highlights of the week.. Because i do want to make it happen. Record my Daily Life for at least a month.

Monday, i met QT after work to attend our first consultation at the IPL place. Booked 2 appointments and then i headed to K’s for homecooked teochew porridge dinner with him and his family. It’s kinda traditional and nice that we share this small coffee table and sit on really short stools to have dinner together and watch tv.  

Erm, Tuesday i think i was home and i didn’t do much besides trying to pack my room.. Every once in a while, i try to revamp it a little, and this time round, there is a valid reason. It has somewhat got to be conducive enough for me to work from home to a certain extent. Given that i would be doing it pretty soon.

Packed up my make up, cleansing essentials, skincare, consolidated my mails, but still found a lot of uncategorised chapalang lying on my table. I’ve also got a drawer of things which i honestly don’t know how to handle. Excess baggage or whatchumacallit. Life is really about making difficult decisions. It will be handled, it will be resolved. V soon.

Then, I skipped rope on tuesday as well. 3k times.

On wednesday, i was supposed to run with sweets at ECP but he got held up at work, i chilled in front of my comp, watched tv, and skipped rope instead.

We made it up on thursday, but the first half of the run was completed too quickly, 2nd half, i was punctured already, so we walked back and talked non stop. yada yada. chuiz, 2.4km of running, 2.4 of walking. haha.

So today, is going to be so exciting! Will be meeting the girls at paradise inn for colourful xiaolongbaos. After which, we’ll be bringing our lanterns, mooncake and drinks to marina barrage for some fun. haha. yeaaay!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Seeing your Ex

 

 

There they are on the crowded street like a hallucination in the pregnant air. You are immediately hit by a bolt of anxiety while the word “fuck” skips over and over in your head like a roughed up CD. Your first impulse is to toss yourself into the nearby alley, but it’s too far gone. They see you. You are two bar magnets simultaneously attracted and repelled by each other, north and south poles wildly confused. The sweltering tension as you approach each other climaxes in a, “Hi.”

Then, an awkward conversation bumbles along in an effort to disregard the coffin of memories anchoring every word. You brandish your shield, calling to arms everything in your reserve in a noticeably forced bluff of contentment. You uneasily shake hands or hug as if you’ve lost all knowledge of how to hug. And you continue along the filthy sidewalk, treading over cracks as you are struck with murky emotions of nostalgia.

It’s a near-death ordeal where brain activity surges and a mashup of all your memories with that person plays on and on and on through invisible earphones. You can’t shut the music off. It crescendos and you remember every nondescript detail. The way you changed hand positions when you went on walks together, sometimes intertwined, sometimes palms diagonally overlapping. The way you couldn’t grasp how this person you’re so in love with could actually like the medicinal taste of kale. The way you held their face or stared up at them anticipating a moment of vulnerability. The way they touched your leg under a table filled with your friends and how that small gesture gave you a profound feeling of support.

It is then that a decrescendo occurs and a cold stream runs through you as you remember that monumental fight you two got into, retreating into your corners of the ring, waiting for the other to send the first SOS, the first apology, the first admittance of wrongdoing. The way you felt at first and the way your relationship crawled towards a routine complacency, dispiritedly trying to regain that electric current of the initial few months when time was irrelevant. The way you both wanted different things in life, but kept an ongoing, unspoken mantra that you were bound by something stronger than your own selfishness.

It was like any other relationship of both positive and negative charges. Just like any other.

And suddenly, it’s all over. You start thinking about your own life again, your present problems and the fact that you need to buy Parmesan if you want to actually enjoy that spaghetti you plan on eating. The memories evaporate. Who you were and that particular stage of your life recedes back into the depths of you, laid to rest in a place with no gravestone; a place you will visit less and less because, no matter how much effort, you can’t resuscitate the past.

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quick hi

Hi! I intend to capture my daily “movements” for the whole month. Will record what I did for the past few days soon. Just discovered one of my photo apps allows me to do collages.

oh gawd monday again

Friday, i went home to meet baby at my place. We managed to meet up only 2 hrs after i knocked off, and headed for our ECP run straight. While waiting, i had porridge and an orange so i felt quite full and started feeling lazy. Once we got started with the run however, everything became history. I did a good 5.4km or so, and we went for dinner at Coffee Bean.Times after working out are always terribly refreshing. The mood becomes lighter than usual and we just always yak non stop after our runs. Must be the runner’s high. haha

Saturday, we went to get his car done, shopped for stuff at autobacs and then headed for brunch at Loysel’s Toy. He didn’t find the place particularly good, because so far, the breakfast at everywhere else doesn’t compare to Breko’s in terms of value for money level, as well as satisfaction level, according to him, my significant other. He loves Breko, and we’ve got the card to get a member’s discount as well, reckon we should get it since we always visit for brunch on weekends. 🙂

After brunch at the very quaint place, which on my end, was a thoroughly enjoyable one, especially because of my croissant, and iced latte, we headed back home to do some accounting, and then headed to the bank to deposit our respective savings into our separate bank accounts. It’s super shiok to see the bank balance increase. We always get super psyched.

Dinner was at imm, a hong kong cafe which was pretty ok, followed by daiso shoppingl. Oh.. ya, then we went shopping at ikea, for my storage boxes and compartments. Then we headed back and played some sims social.

On sunday, which is today, we had breakfast at his place, followed by light snack of takopachi at taka, shopped in town, muji-ed, then we headed to nolboo for korean dinner. My craving for apple crumble was so bad, we walked all over town to look for it. Finally found apple Drummer at A curious teepee. Their rendition of apple crumble was pretty good but it can be more crumbley i think. Loved the vanilla ice cream.

You know you’ve got someone awesome when he never fail to peel prawns for you, feed you the first bite of his food, and is always patient while you deliberate over minor issues.

i love.

Friday is always the best day of the week

It’s friday and i just had tofu soup for lunch, from this thai food stall opposite Chealsea Lodge, along tanjong katong rd. The stall serves pretty ok thai food, and is located inside a 1 storey eating house. Our BD team likes to go there because parking is free and we don’t ever have to worry about not finding lots. Well, such a place is considered a gem when almost everywhere else in singapore charges drivers for parking. I drove them to lunch today.

Yesterday, we were given a rather attractive proposition, which will revolutionalise the way we work around here. For EVER. Yes you heard me right. On monday, after our BD meeting, the boss led our group of 4 cars to a nearby locale to view the so called new office location for administrative based employees, such as the finance, IT, Business Dev depts. The premise was, really, inadequate in a couple of ways. I’d just reveal one of them, it wasn’t big enough to house us all. It is going to be a challenge, and upon leaving to go for Glor’s farewell lunch, we started to joke about, (my team only), that perhaps we would have to resort to camping at Mac’s with our laptops if there really is a space shortage. LOL.

So, yesterday we headed to Marine Parade for lunch in J’s car. The man, my manager, received a call from boss, suggesting us sales people work from home. I tell you, me and J were totally gesturing the OK sign fervently. hahaha. So.. apparently, our counterparts have given this idea the nod, and i guess there isn’t much to complain about.

I’d like to think that we are a level headed bunch cos the excitement couldn’t contain the underlying issues which started to surface over lunch. There were many things that needed addressing before this move can be totally foolproof. Anyways, it wasn’t in our blood to protest against it of course. Still, we couldn’t help but feel sad that our lives might be led to anti socialism, we won’t be able to see each other everyday too.

It’s amazing how things can take a twist like that. When you thought things are going to be challenging and work conditions might not be satisfactory, but decide to bite the bullet and just go with the flow, something too good to be true just come crashing upon you. Like a “rave wave”. Totally created this term while i was typing. I digress. Anyway, exciting times ahead, and for all i’ve imagined and hoped, this seems to be the best arrangement for myself personally.

I will make sure this double edged sword of working from home, which has both benefits and disadvantages, turn out to be single edged, and it can only be beneficial!

Really, it is going to be a huge personal challenge but i am so so excited. Come what may..

Then the next highlight of thursday was my meet up with Huilin at Somerset that night. We caught up over Mussels and stuff at Robert Timms. After that we headed to Acid Bar’s Al Fresco area. Had Sangria and Choc Martini and felt kinda high. Why huh? So… Caught up with each other’s lives, and later, her new beau turned up. Huge age gap but he seems a pleasant person. As long as she’s happy i guess. I like to say age is but a number!

I’m totally stoked for the weekend. What can i do? Want to totally have fun. Oh i just bought an IPL package in the morning and will go for the first session with QT if all turns well. Yippee.

For the past few days…

On Last Friday night, i stayed home to nurse a cramp. It was pretty horrible as the night approached, and through the whole night, i was moaning in pain… tossing and turning in bed. I took a panadol in the afternoon, but still, when night came, i was not able to escape my fate. But thank god, it was not to the extent of repeated vomitting. I was kinda hoping that my cramps won’t arrive at the dates of our bangkok trip, and also, that it would not cause me discomfort when i run for the Adidas KOTR.

Saturday was presidential election polling day. Slept in till 10am and then went to vote with sweets and the fam. After which, they wanted to head to havelock area for some chinese lunch. Asked to be counted out and headed home to grab some stuff. Went with sweets to vote and then slept in more. Was totally hoping that i’d be up for the King Of The Road race which we signed up for many months ago. It was a pretty uneventful, peaceful day. He cooked me kimchi soup with tanghoon for dinner. The singapore brand kimchi wasn’t as good as the korean one he got the other time. Still, i totally appreciate him going out to buy the stuff and making the soup for me. Later that night, we headed to Holland V to run some errands. Had to sleep early for the race on Sunday, so we didn’t wait up for the election results. Forgot my contact lenses so went home to take.

Sunday: Set the alarm at 5am but only woke at 5.52am. lol. Rushed to get ready and while i was rushing like crazy, i wore my contact lenses and proceeded to do other stuff. Then the darnest thing happened. I realised that one of my lenses went missing. Wasn’t in the lens case, so we were frantically feeling the floor for it. rofl. Ok, then finally found it after like 10 minutes. Walked to the mrt and got to City Hall just in time. 10 minutes into the flag off, we were still walking to the start point with the rest of the non competitive crowd. We started off the race as Wave 3. Managed to run 8km and walk-run the remaining. For the second half, it was really walk 70%, run 30% la. Not proud of my timing. So anyway, after that, we zoomed home to bathe and came back out for food. It was 2 hrs plus after our run that we had food. Not good. It will be ideal to replenish immediately i think. So, we had shokudo at Bugis. After that we caught an impromptu movie at illuma. Final Destination 5! Super gory until some parts have to cover eyes one. DISGUSTING. After all these, my headache was still terrible  and wasn’t going away. I might have over exerted during the run. So we went home and napped for 2-3hrs. Had to shelf our buffet at Melt. He wanted to bring me there cos we deserved to gorge after our marathon, and more importantly, sunday marked our 4th month together. In order to be able to fully enjoy the buffet, we both agreed to postpone our gratification.

Monday totally felt like a Friday. Had ample  rest the day before so was very awake. BD meeting happens every 2 weeks, on mondays and this was one of those mondays. Headed to Defu and took minutes throughout. By the time we were done, it was almost lunch. Gloria was leaving us to head back to Corp so a group of us (bout 9) met for lunch at Nakhon Thai. The day was short. Went back to office after and then counted down to knock off time. Went for melt buffet with sweets that very night. After that felt like puking and told myself no buffets for the next half a year. =d

Tuesday was a public holiday!Awesome. Day 4 of the cycle too. Relieved that all the back pains and all is finally gone. My weight has gone up man shit. 48. I realised that i so have got to work out more to bring the weight down. All the stuff i let myself consume during the bangkok trip, and then at the buffet. So tuesday was a day for sin reduction. had chee cheong fun and porridge for breakfast and spotted Lynn Poh at the hawker centre, cereal for teabreak at about 3pm, and prawn noodle soup for dinner. cross my fingers and pray that the weight is all oolong and water. it’s gonna go, it’s gonna go.

Wednesday…. that’s today. Hm, sometimes, i wish i’d suffer from selective amnesia. I can’t help but think about stuff while i was sleeping last night and apparently what i thought about appeared in my dreams. urgh. It has got to go some day. How can i tell myself not to think pointless thoughts? All these involuntary thoughts… They haunt me. So, tonight, i shall skip ropes, 3500 times maybe. Then maybe jog on friday or tomorrow. (*update: i didn’t skip 3500, i skipped 3000 times only.)

Vintage

Solid Rose Gold watch from the 1930s.

Me like it. Wore it to work today

hello once again

Ah, hello my blog.. i’m finally here again. It feels like a long time since i’ve been here. I’ve thought of updating every now and then but didn’t get around to do it. i didn’t know what to write, what to say what not to say.

This is really like a place for me to word down thoughts that are stuck up here in my brain. People these days seldom find the effort in putting in words how they feel. A lot of us just vent about it on twitter and facebook  in a few short sentences. It’s a luxury to be longwinded. At least, writing at length allows us to practise our language so we don’t get rusty so soon.

So over the past few days, i went for a getaway to bangkok with baby ❤

legs are on the brink of breaking, ate so many stuff i usually won’t eat, walk on hours non stop, shop shop and shop even more..

i feel like going back again to buy more stuff. mad right?

hmm, iphoto does not like wordpress so i can’t upload photos direct. awww. ful.

pictures up next time… need to figure how

August is Expensive

This month, i’ll be heading to Bangkok for a vacation.

The airfare and accomodation is all paid for. Need to set aside loads of money to shop though

Went for a complimentary facial yesterday, and i’m somewhat happy that i didn’t have to pay and did not become a victim of hardsell tactics.

feeling pretty moody now, It’s monday but it’s the holidays tomorrow. Can’t wait for the day to end.